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well… i noe i am not good company these few weeks wif my weird moods… my dearies found ways to cheer me up… i got treats from them… pep talks… sweet msn msgs… it’s really the thot that counts… thank you from the bottom of my heart…

getting my well-deserved rest… no thanks to a fever bug & a painful sore throat i got… 2 days mc… rotting @ home… oh well… at least i will get enuff slp… i juz got myself a new sis-in-law… my bro proposed to his darling already… in spain… so romantic… i helped choose the proposal ring!!!

my pri sch mate is getting married on sat… happy for her… her new home is gorgeous!!! i love the decor… simple and nice… i love her lamps!!! but they dun come cheap… 500++… and i will be jie mei for the 3rd time… mayb i juz apply to be a professional bridemaid… haha

all these wedding bug going aro… oh gosh… haiz…

when will the saying of sorry be enuff? when will the heartache ends? when do i noe it is for real?… …

"Apologize"

I’m holding your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground…

will you be the guardian angel who holds my hand regardless of anything?

will you be the angel who wipes the tears off my face?

will you be the angel who says he love to see me smile always?

will you be the angel who will hold me tight and never let me go?

will you be the angel who lets me be who i am and understands?

will you be the angel who says he love me and means it from his heart? 

will you be the angel who never lets me fall?… …

"Your Guardian Angel"

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can’t replace
And now that I’m strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I’ll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It’s okay. It’s okay. It’s okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I’ll be the one

I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you’re my, you’re my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don’t throw that away
Cuz I’m here for you
Please don’t walk away and
Please tell me you’ll stay woah, stay woah

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I’ll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I’ll stand up with you forever
I’ll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Haiz…

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Tell me how I’m supposed to heal this open wound
because of you
And tell me who woulda thought that id ever be trying to get over you
I’m stuck in the moment, of memories of me and you
And I can get over it, but I ain’t sure if I want to
cause you dun made your bed, now you gotta lie in it
you gotta lie in it babe
Now all the things you said don’t mean a thing
don’t mean a thing to me now..
I can’t believe I gave you ONE.. LAST.. SHOT
I let it ride now baby it’s your stop
Oh so so leave
now the jokes on me
It took a while to finally come to my senses
but what
What do you do, what do you do after love? Oh
What can you say ..what can you say when it’s said and done
When its over… Oh
Cause you can’t hide a heart break
wen you can’t stop these tears from falling down (I can’t stop these tears)
So what do you do? What do you do?
After love.
after love.
after love.

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Lessoned learned house can burn were close to heart
Betcha words dont mean nothing to me
Thought you said, thought you said that you loved me
Thought you said thought you said that you need me
Thought you said thought you said you complete me
Thought you said thought you said you were never gonna let it go
Thought you said thought you said when you held me
Thought you said thought you said when’d you tell me
Thought you said thought you said no one else could replace me
Thought you said thought you said that you never gonna let it go

one of my dearies has found a better job… happy for her… truely i am… but it means i lost another kaki @ work… will miss her… :’(

no idea y… having lots of mood swings… since like 2 weeks ago??? haiz… i got no idea y and i dun wan to be like tat… i am so afraid of hurting those who care for me… but i juz cant help it… for no freaking reasons i can juz break down and cry… i am so tired of this… have been trying to control my emotions… but is so darn hard… when u have pple chasing you for stuff… asking u for info… push work TO YOU to do…

there are so many things my dearies dun noe… cos i dun wan to burdern them wif my nonsense… so is me and only me who noes wat is going on…

i juz wish i can juz leave everything behind and juz hide away from everything… BUT I CANT!!! JUZ COS I AM AN ADULT NOW!!! i hate this…

who will be there for me to lean on? to listen to my whinings?  to cheer me up when things get bad?

now i juz wan to curl up and hide away from the world…