My Blog

wat do consider right.. wat do u consider wrong…

i had a great friday last week… i meet up wif my bestie and whined away to her abt my frustrations… she juz told me… it’s juz a job… why do i make myself so unhappy over it… dun let the actions of others affect me too much…

she told me wat has been done is undermining my authority… and ignoring the fact tat i was put in this position by her… i always have this feeling that she felt i am unable to take up the responsibility…. juz bcos i qn why is my dept doing such work… doesn’t mean i trying to taiji away work… i juz wan once and for all, the procedure to be right…

i dont tink our dept should be one tat swallows ALL the paperwork juz cos we are CS… i dun tink this shld be the way… am i wrong to qn tat… if everything gets dump here… the dept will get more and more frustrated… once or twice we dun mind HELPING to do…but… if it’s taken for granted… den it gets bad…

i have already voice out to you… but i guess it didnt help…

i hope i can keep the decision firm…

great… this whole week i have been so super emo… tears are like at the edge of my eyes… ready to roll down at the slightest issues…

i do not noe how to explain this… is like a mixture of the green eyed dragon and my very own fiery temper… how would you feel when everyone noes wat is going on in our own dept before u do.. and the person who consulted them is

ur

own superior… even unrelated personnel noe about it?? i felt soooooooooooooooooo unuseful…

issues are being by-passed by me… wat needs to be done by me is passed to some1 else to do… so i am or not still in charge… mixed signals are given and i am growing increasingly frustrated… i snap too easily now…

If i have given anyone the impression that i am not busy… I AM TELLING YOU NOW… I AM BUSY… but still if it needs to be done by me… juz say… explain clearly… dun get frustrated wif me even when some1 else is pressing you for the info…

i am growin increasingly insignificant in your eyes… yes we did talk… but i dun tink anything changed? they still hover in your room…when i talk to u… u gave me the feeling you dun wan to talk.. mayb i caught u a a wrong time… mayb it was the way i talk… too harsh? too demanding? when u leave the ofc.. u say bye to her and not to me… and i am juz sitting near her… this kind of things affect my morale… so wat if u keep tellin me to talk to u.. to let u noe my thots… when u dun even bother to listen… or are u taking my words from a negative point of view?

There are many frdships formed here… really many… but I guess I am too affected by it cos I dun feel the care and concern you have given them…and 3 of them are juz sitting aro me… I entered the company way longer den 2 of them… I wasted so many tears and my personal time over the work here… i dun even get the same treatment as them… do u noe how damn demoralizing is that??

She gets frustrated wif work.. she tears… and u are so worried about her… hello…. I am

UR

Anyway all these are starting to affect me… so I guess… anyway… I have decided…