frustrations…
great… this whole week i have been so super emo… tears are like at the edge of my eyes… ready to roll down at the slightest issues…
i do not noe how to explain this… is like a mixture of the green eyed dragon and my very own fiery temper… how would you feel when everyone noes wat is going on in our own dept before u do.. and the person who consulted them is
ur own superior… even unrelated personnel noe about it?? i felt soooooooooooooooooo unuseful…
issues are being by-passed by me… wat needs to be done by me is passed to some1 else to do… so i am or not still in charge… mixed signals are given and i am growing increasingly frustrated… i snap too easily now…
If i have given anyone the impression that i am not busy… I AM TELLING YOU NOW… I AM BUSY… but still if it needs to be done by me… juz say… explain clearly… dun get frustrated wif me even when some1 else is pressing you for the info…
i am growin increasingly insignificant in your eyes… yes we did talk… but i dun tink anything changed? they still hover in your room…when i talk to u… u gave me the feeling you dun wan to talk.. mayb i caught u a a wrong time… mayb it was the way i talk… too harsh? too demanding? when u leave the ofc.. u say bye to her and not to me… and i am juz sitting near her… this kind of things affect my morale… so wat if u keep tellin me to talk to u.. to let u noe my thots… when u dun even bother to listen… or are u taking my words from a negative point of view?
There are many frdships formed here… really many… but I guess I am too affected by it cos I dun feel the care and concern you have given them…and 3 of them are juz sitting aro me… I entered the company way longer den 2 of them… I wasted so many tears and my personal time over the work here… i dun even get the same treatment as them… do u noe how damn demoralizing is that??
She gets frustrated wif work.. she tears… and u are so worried about her… hello…. I am
UR subordinate and I dun have tat kind of care and concern… mayb I tear too quietly??? Should I tear in front of u…
Anyway all these are starting to affect me… so I guess… anyway… I have decided…
