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I’ve made up my mind,
Don’t need to think it over,
if I’m wrong I am right,
Don’t need to look no further,
This ain’t lust,
i know this is love but,

Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere,
Or would it be a waste?
Even If i knew my place should i leave it there?
Should i give up,
Or should i just keep chasing pavements?
Even if it leads nowhere

[Verse 1:]
Don’t know where to start, something aint goin right
Feel it in my soul cuz I’ve tried (ooh baby)
Try to keep you satisfied (please don’t cry)
I just think we both need time

[Chorus:]
She said, "Baby can you please just stay?"
"It aint to late to work this thing out"
I said, "Girl this aint easy for me."
"At least the truth is comin out."
But she said, "Why cant we make up like the last time?"
"Im just afraid to hear u say go."
I said, "Baby Im sorry, I think its time we let go"
[female voice:]
baby don’t leave, don’t leave, don’t leave
tell me u’ll stay, u’ll stay
[male voice:]
I gotta leave, gotta leave, gotta leave
Girl I think its time we let go.

* it has always been like tis, isn’t it? *

so sad and tired… in ofc oting… tink can camp here… basically am here oting 5 days a week… do U even care… only noe how to say… ain’t the company exploiting you… OF COS I NOE TAT… BUT WAT CAN I DO… i can only complete wat’s left den look else where… i HAVE A SENSE of RESPONSIBITY at least…

u only noe how to talk abt urself and urself and urself… did u bother to stop and listen to me… or hmm… u did for like 1 FREAKING min and den u cut in wif ur own topic… i ended up not telling u anything… but when i do tat… means u will nv noe wat is happening in my life… u will nv noe why at times i am so freaking grouchy or so teary…

u LOVE to call me names… i told U AGAIN AND AGAIN… i HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE HATE tat… i have my own pride… i will not let u destroy it… u destroy it many times before… i TOOK me sooo to rebuild it… i will not let it get destroy again… all those incidents are only SMALL ISSUES IN THE JOURNEY of LIFE… dun u get it… compare to so many other issues.. is DARN FREAKING SMALL!!! wake up!!!

mayb u are so darn perfect that u cant accept flaws in other pple.. but too bad… i am NOT FLAWLESS…

this kitty needs TLC… loads n loads of it… needs to be cuddled… NOT TO BE TAUNTED AND INSULTED!!!

I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I read a note my grandma wrote back in nineteen twenty-three.
Grandpa kept it in his coat, and he showed it once to me. He said,
"Boy, you might not understand, but a long, long time ago,
Grandma’s daddy didn’t like me none, but I loved your Grandma so."

We had this crazy plan to meet and run away together.
Get married in the first town we came to, and live forever.
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet, instead
Of her, I found this letter, and this is what it said:

If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.

I read those words just hours before my Grandma passed away,
In the doorway of a church where me and Grandpa stopped to pray.
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my fifteen years;
But as he said these words to her, his eyes filled up with tears.

If you get there before I do, don’t give up on me.
I’ll meet you when my chores are through;
I don’t know how long I’ll be.
But I’m not gonna let you down, darling wait and see.
And between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.
Between now and then, till I see you again,
I’ll be loving you. Love, me.

memories…

Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn’t think I’d miss her
That much
I want to fill this new frame
But its empty

Tried to write a letter
In ink
Its been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we’re trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we’re torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We’re empty

And I’ve even wondered
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But its empty
Its empty

Maybe we’re trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we’re torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We’re empty

Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh

Maybe we’re trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we’re torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We’re empty

We’re empty
We’re empty

pretty obvious i am moody too… grouchy too.. *freaks*

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see
That I want and I’m needing everything that we should be
I’ll bet she’s beautiful, that girl he talks about
And she’s got everything that I have to live without

Drew talks to me, I laugh cause it’s so damn funny
That I can’t even see anyone when he’s with me
He says he’s so in love, he’s finally got it right,
I wonder if he knows he’s all I think about at night

[Chorus:]

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only thing that keeps me wishing on a wishing star
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do

Drew walks by me, can he tell that I can’t breathe?
And there he goes, so perfectly,
The kind of flawless I wish I could be
She’d better hold him tight, give him all her love
Look in those beautiful eyes and know she’s lucky cause

[Repeat Chorus]

So I drive home alone, as I turn out the light
I’ll put his picture down and maybe
Get some sleep tonight

He’s the reason for the teardrops on my guitar
The only one who’s got enough of me to break my heart
He’s the song in the car I keep singing, don’t know why I do
He’s the time taken up, but there’s never enough
And he’s all that I need to fall into..

Drew looks at me, I fake a smile so he won’t see.

sad song… sad story… sighz

What i have learnt in this year…

never to trust some1 fully wif my heart… i ended up suffering more den the person who broke my heart

learnt to say no when needed… i hvt fully totally mastered the art of saying no yet…

to be tactful in wat i say.. be in within frds or in workplace.. words no matter wat are still hurting to the heart…

learnt to let go when is time to let go… no point pondering over it… no point holding it too close to the heart… i will only hurt myself…

learnt to pamper myself… tis is a year in which i totally overspended… haiz…

learnt hw to drink fairly well.. haha.. i juz giggle myself silly instead of boohooing.. haha

made a couple of new frds whom i am very happy to keep them by my side…

more to come… brain dead currently….

well… tis is the freakin last time i will ever msg u… dun wanna reply den fine… no replies to my smses make me feel like an idiot…

rem tis pt well frds and dearies… i dun tolerate ZERO replies to smses…

everything is u say one… i am done wif caring… anyway… so many pple cares for u… dun need me tis extra liao… fine… goodbye…

1. My life is likely to last 10-15 years. Any separation from you will be painful for me. Remember that before you get me.

10. Go with me on difficult journeys. Never say "I can’t bear to watch" or "let it happen in my absence". Everything is easier for me if you are there. Remember I love you.

i was going thru http://www.asdsingapore.com/index.php?option=com_frontpage&Itemid=1 …. so heart wrenching… *bawls her eyes out*

please love ur furry pals… dun abandon them… dun take up one when u are not confident of how much love u can spare for them… they need as much TLC as a normal human being… spare a thot before getting ur furry pals….

woohoo… came back from thailand trip a week ago… now i noe why all the gals i noe LOVE to go there… everything is like so freaking cheaaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppppppppppppppppp…. the heels are like sooooooooooooo nice.. the gals was saying.. arhmm.. linda.. u cant buy the whole shop back.. haiz.. the heels are like at least 60% cheaper den sg… soooooooooo nice so more.. got diamates… droolzz…

the dresses are to die for lo.. hahaha… dun look cheap somemore.. hahahaha… tink i bought lik 6-7 dresses??? my cny shopping are done.. but kenna suan by the guys.. u sure ur cny shopping done???!!! come back sg will not shop meh!!! hahaa.. opps.. :X

oh well.. i juz need to get a nice bag to complement the dresses i bought!!!

the food like.. ultra yummy and cheap too.. the sashmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii… droolz…. niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeerrrrr den sg… fresher toooooooooooooooooooooooo….. the oysters porridge is also to die for….sooooooooooooo yummy… oysters nice and big and juicy… and one bowl of porridge with 10 over oysters is like sgd3 only lo… haizzz… can i move there.. permenently????

hehehe…. really had fun shopping wif the gals… noisy noisy bunch.. tink the shopowners was also amused by us… juz imagine 5 noisy gals bargaining for deals… hahahaha…

oh ya… did lash extension… whichhhhhhhhhhh lasted me like 1.5 weeks… haiz… i am lousy at taking care of them… gave up and started pullin them out on sat… hahaha.. so painful.. and many of my lashes kenna pulled out!!! haiz.. i need to use falsies for the next few weeks..cos… my lash look so bare!!!!

also… thank u dearie for sponsoring my meals… hahaha.. if not.. not enuff $$ to spend… hehehe

the experience there was great… there.. is really unlike sg… i dun hear pple honkin away.. drivers there although reckless but srangely careful… drivers are wif patience and will let pple cut into their lane… in sg… wait long long.. hahahaha

arhmm… will be saving up for my nx trip there!!! will save many many moolahs!! *grins*